Hey I was all stoked and stuff cause my friend Rose was taking me to the LA anime convention and stuff and I was gonna go tomorrow and we were gonna cosplay as misa and light (I was gonna be light cuz she wanted us to match). and I was gonna get all of the stuff i needed today..... well...
Rose cancelled on me. She said her friend forgot to get something and she was going somewhere anyway saturday and then sunday she'll be busy. One chance to get away from my family and the yelling and I got cancelled on.... Well, who cares? I'm glad I didn't waste money on the uniform I was getting for it. It was stupid to get my hopes up for the stupid thing anyway. And my grandparents talked about Animagic (i don't like it being called Autumn Dream) and instead of being there since it's about a day before my birthday, I'm probably gonna be up in Tehachapi celebrating someone else's birthday! Woopti fucking doo! I get to spend my birthday with a whole bunch of old people and my family who all absolutely hate me! And I'm not allowed to use my phone in tehachapi because "it's rude to do that on someone's birthday." Ugh! I just wanna walk out into the damn desert and let the coyote's eat me. This has got to be the worst years of my fucking life.

And today just keeps getting better. I'm getting yelled at by my grandparents, my sister, my cousin, and my aunt. Fuck! Ugh! I hate this stupid house and everytone in it! They don't fucking know anything about me and they act like I'm just another nuisance! Ugh! And I can't believe my sister and cousin can call me Emo Fuck all the time and treat me like shit, telling me to go and kill myself and my parents do nothing about it! Ugh! If they want me to die so much then all they gotta do is say it and I'll blow my fucking brains out in the desert! I wouldn't wanna bleed on their precious carpet now would I?